Our Last Day Together

Hello everyone,

Well, I said I had some pictures to share of Ludo’s last day with us, and here they are.

We decided a couple of days before that Ludo was in too much pain and not able to enjoy things like he wanted to and so we had booked his vet appointment. He was such a brave boy, right to the end and if anyone had seen him in good moments they would have thought he was mostly fine, maybe just a bit hobby, so we were able to enjoy our last day together. 

I took the day off work and we headed down to the beach with a picnic.

The sun was shining down on us and it was such a beautiful day. The water sparkled in the sunlight, there were other happy dogs around and I let Ludo chase the ball as much as he wanted to. It felt like I was getting a little glimpse of where Ludo would be headed next and I am so happy we got to have that happy day together. I am sure my photos don’t do it justice but I hope they capture a bit of how beautiful it was. 

We started off with an ice cream. The locally made kind and Ludo got a whole cone to himself. He couldn’t believe his luck! (Arran had a little bit in a paper tub)

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We sat on the rocks and watched the world go by. A whole class room of school children were doing something with geography near by, but they didn’t come too close. Then Ludo sat and watched my lunch be eaten and helped out with the challenging iced bun cake part of it.

It felt like we were the only ones there and I thought of all the fun we’d had exploring these shores together.

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I wonder if all those people know what a special day it is today…

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Belly full of ice cream but ever hopeful for more.

Arran explored for a bit on his own, but we managed to get one photo with all 3 of us together. It felt like rather a timeless moment.

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But time waits for no Mum, especially not when you have a shetland-rabbit dog, waiting to continue their last adventure!

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Let’s go have fun Mum!

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Wait for it…

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Catch me if you can, Ludo!

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The rock pools looked so inviting. He couldn’t swim but he still enjoyed a nice wade through the water…

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Someone got very sandy! He usually liked to roll around on the dry sand or grass after being in the water to try off his face, but his tumour was stopping him going too far over so I dried him with some tissues.

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I’ve zoomed in on this head shot, because I could see myself in his eye. ūüôā

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Running to the horizon

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We stayed for hours, I didn’t want it to end, but it had to, as all things must.

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My boy

So, he went with sand in his fur and some cheese in his mouth and I think he would have been pleased with that.

Thank you for sticking with me, through these sad days. My friends, what would I have done without you all and your kind words and your loving of Ludo?

I’m not quite sure what to do with the blog. It’s always been his. So I think this will be it for Seaside shelties. Arran still has some things to say, so maybe we’ll start again someplace else. I’ll be sure to let you know if we do. But for now, I guess all we have to do is wish you lots of Lickies, Love Ludo and Mum. (and Arran and TND and Molly and Faline too. xx)

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Trying…

Hurro furiends,

It me, Ludo!

Since I last posted I is not been doing so well. My cancer being very annoying and ouchy and not feeling comfortable at all. I is trying to not notice but it getting very hard. I still like to try and go out for walkies but we doesn’t seem to get far and I need to go to the toilet all the time, even though I can’t!

Mum has been trying to help me take my mind off it by playing little games on the floor and rolling the ball to me and we has been doing some tricks and playing find the treats and playing with my ‘brain game’ toys.

Mum and TND help us do them as I doesn’t have the same energy to figure out how to do them by myself.

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Like me Arran, not with your feets for this part. You has to pull, push and nudge this one.abraintoy

I make sure I tell Arran not to come near me when I is doing my treat games. He being a very good little brother at the moment and not being all annoying and sniffing me all the time, like he did be when I first got cancer. I hope Stella forgives me for my very mean face. Hehe! Don’t do worryings, he would not come anywhere near me when I show him my mean face.

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We made a video but it not very good as Mum does not really has a proper video recorder! I has fun doing my tricks even though I cas not do some of them so well as I used to. My lump very big now. ūüė¶ I is very happy when we is doing ‘take my mind off it’ things but when we is not I is not quite so happy.

I is going back to the vets someday soon and Mum says that maybe I will see my Auntie Penny. Mum is a bit teary about that but I will try my best to cheer her up!

~Lickies, Ludo!

pee ess: Thank you so much for sticking with us and all your nice comments. Sorry that we haven’t been by to your blogs in a while.

 

Golf balls and POTP

Hurro,

It me Ludo!

I thinks I is going to have to ask for some Power of the Paw… At the weekend I started feeling a bit ouchie on my tummy and not wanting to move like I usually do. Mum noticed me looking at it and she did not be very happy when she looked at it too. We went off to the vets on Monday and Mum got me to do my bang – upside down trick and my vet looked at my tummy too. The vet likes me because I always march right into his office to see him and he says every other dog has to be dragged in. The vet said some things to Mum about it not being fair and he wished he could cure me.

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Don’t do worryings Mr. Vet. So long as I can still play with my toys I is happy!

I has something bothering me in my groin right by my leg and I is licking it to make it better, I think it grew pretty quickly because Mum checks my belly scars from my cancer surgeries every other day and it did not be there before. The Vet said I definitely had a golf ball in there! Well, I doesn’t know how it got in there but it should not be there! I already heard Mum tell TND that it be an apricot. So I is not sure who be right. Probably me though!

The vet gave me some medicine of antibiotics and pain killer and anti inflammatory and even though I tries to get out of taking the medicines I do like the treat I get after so I put up with it. Even if I do have a bit of an argument with Mum as to whether I should take the yucky syringe medicine. My Bro-fur Arran is so spoiled he thinks he is missing out so he gets a syringe full of water afterwards. I cas not even imagine volunteering to have a syringe put in my mouth!

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How about I just has the treat instead?

I IS feeling quite a bit better already (I bet it does not have anything to do with the medicine though, because it not nice taking medicine). Mum says that the lump will not go away because it probably more of that Mast cell cancer stuff but the inflammation and swelling around it already be going down a lot so it not ouchy or affecting my movement right now. My vet said to us that Mast cells control the bodies histamine response and so that why they can be sore and go red and swollen around them. That probably why my original little tumour on my leg got diagnosed as a hot spot at first.

Anyway, I is still carrying on mostly as normal and I want to do all the things I usually do. TND and Mum sometimes look at me sad but most of the time they is just their usual selves. Mum and me and Arran are going camping at an agility show next weekend.¬†I don’t think Mum will let me do agility anymore, especially cos I seem to damage my skin more easily at the moment, but I will still has a fun time camping. I got to go for a little swim¬†in the sea yesterday too.

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If you has any POTP to spare, please do sendings my way for no more ouchies.

~lickies, Ludo!

pee ess from Mum: Thank you everyone for your continued thoughts and best wishes for Ludo. I’m sorry to put up¬†such a gloomy post. This recent lump has come on fast and has shocked us quite a bit as he was doing so well, with only a very small apparent recurrence of the MCT in the form of a sore in his ear. This is on the other side to his recent surgery, but about where one of his lymph node removal scars, I promised Ludo no more surgery and our vet hasn’t offered it for now, so unless something changes,¬†we just hope for a slowdown of the growth and continue palliative treatment.

pee pee ess from Mum: Does anyone else hate the ‘palatable’ veterinary tablets they seem to be making now? Ludo is fussy anyway and, although incredibly greedy, he will spit things out if he doesn’t like them. Having flavoured tablets that he doesn’t like just makes it easier for him to detect them in whatever food I try to hide them in. He is very adept at eating the surrounding food and spitting out the tablet!

Dog bucket lists

Hurro, it me, Ludo!

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A bucket list be sort of like a human joke thingy of stuff¬†to do before you die… It not a funny joke, like: squeak-toys-at-Mum-but-don’t-let-her-get-them, or pretend-to-bite-Dad’s¬†nose, but who understands people humour anyway?

Before I had any troubles with cancer mum started doing a post after reading this article:¬†’50 Things to do in Cumbria before you die’¬†and we¬†started thinking about things that might be on a dog’s ‘life’ list, because, lots of peoples has started doing ‘bucket lists’ even though they doesn’t have a ‘reason’ to.

I guess you could call them Goals.

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Shouty Seaside Sunday (at cancer)

Today, we don’t really want to post; maybe if we don’t, what we have to tell wont really be true.

Ludo’s stitches are all out! He is very pleased about that. He can resume normal life.

Today we normalled.

Today we went back to agility training and Ludo wizzed around the course, having lots of fun.

Today we went to the beach together, the sun was beaming down on us, but it wasn’t too hot. Perfect weather, really.

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We didn’t take a ball and Ludo was annoyed about that. He barked accusingly at everyone else who had a ball. He tried to steal a small child’s ball from his flinger stick.

Today we just strolled and thought, smelled the seaside air and sat to watch the world go past.

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We don’t know how many Today’s we have left together to enjoy these things. Our vet has recently told us it might not be as many as we would hope for, or like.

Yes, it’s that news we didn’t want to hear. The lesions and lump recently removed from Ludo’s abdomen are the same high grade mast cell tumours as he had removed in November. His prognosis is pretty bleak. Already I have found two more lesions in different places since these ones have been removed. We have promised him no more horrible things will happen at the vets.

Luckily for dogs, they don’t know or care about the future, they live in the Today. So we will keep on enjoying our Todays for as long as we have them.

But for now… will you join us just for a moment, in SHOUTING¬†at stupid cancer?

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Go away!

Thank you dear blog pals for your support. I think we might need it in the coming months.

– Blog by Mum, Dee.